and Im not excited as I think I should be

Im always excited about WDW. For some reason Im having regrets on a few things...
telling my grandmom that she can come with me
Staying at POR and not POP
Letting my oldest DD9 come. She and DD7 argue all the time and Im about to pull my hair out
I dont know.. I am excited because I cant sleep at night. Heck I was logged onto here last night at 1am
BUt something just isnt there. I keep having dreams my sister will have the twins when Im gone and that just cant happen. Im her breathing coach because her DH doesnt know how to do it right.
Im upset because my DD9 decided to go last minute and I had to change all my adrs and I lost some good times I had. Im not able to go to LeCellier. I have to use Concord Steakhouse now. I cant do LTT so we had to switch to Crystal Palace and I dont really like that place.. Im sorry to ramble I just had to vent..